Two months after leaving prison, I am well aware that my silence has concerned many.<\/p>\n
I apologize for it.<\/p>\n
I have spent the last two months finding out a lot about myself, and part of that process included me not trying to be the centre of my existence.<\/p>\n
I have obviously failed there.<\/p>\n
My brother sent me a message the other day insisting that I blog again, saying: “People paid good money to keep you in jail; they want to hear from you.”<\/p>\n
I had to bite my tongue. But he is not wrong despite me thinking they spent their loot to keep me OUT of jail…<\/p>\n
Actually I didn’t. Instead I meditated for 25 minutes and gave thanks for the six weeks of rehab I’ve just done.<\/p>\n
But let’s go back.<\/p>\n
No, lets go forward.<\/p>\n
I’m in Phnom Penh. I’m free, and in about a week I’ll be flying to Zimbabwe to spend a month with my family there. After that, I’ll return to PP for three months before being legally allowed back into Bali.<\/p>\n
Two months of freedom already. A life of freedom ahead.<\/p>\n
In the last two months I have discovered that the tunnel I knew about at Kerobokan while I was there was actually usable. Literally and metaphorically.<\/p>\n
In the last two months I learnt that my addictive behavior has been destructive to me and those I thought or pretended I loved. <\/p>\n
It was a salutary lesson.<\/p>\n
I learnt to breath. I learnt to meditate. I learnt to understand my own behavior.<\/p>\n
But back to basics …<\/p>\n
I can’t tell you how much fun I’ve had since leaving prison. I left Bali and flew to Bangkok and thanks to my ex-employers, Reuters, I was put up in the Hilton for three days while they evaluated my mental state. I really can\u2019t thank Dean Yates enough for the work he put into getting me the care I needed, and I thank Reg and Sarah for making it possible.<\/p>\n
I don’t think I left the hotel room for three days. I spent most of time in the shower, ordering steak and salad from room service. To be alone without anyone within farting distance was a gift. <\/p>\n
Less than a week later I went to The Cabin, a rehab facility in Chiang Mai. <\/p>\n
It was actually more punitive than Kerobokan, and certainly I was checked more thoroughly on arrival.<\/p>\n
After two weeks I wanted to leave; after three weeks I signed on for another two weeks. I have a lot to say, and a lot to write. I\u2019m here and well and thank you for all the love and support.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m just meditating, getting my thoughts together and sorting stuff out.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ll be back in days … literally, days.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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